Okay -- maybe it was Neutron Dance not Lupron Dance but still... this is what's been in my head today. I saw my OB/GYN for my yearly checkup, and we talked about my troubles that have returned with payback. Pregnancy is a great cure for endometriosis, but you can't stay preggers or nursing forever.
Or at least I can't.
Two years ago I was on the eve of another (the 3rd) laparoscopy to remove the dreaded stuff. God decided that we needed Cameron instead of another surgery. I knew that things would get bad again and we'd revisit.
Last time we talked about Lupron, it was relatively new and I was a little scared of it. It is hormone therapy that "shuts off" the estrogen, thereby putting you in a somewhat menopausal state. We wanted more children fairly soon at that point, so I didn't want to go jacking around with things.
At this point, I can't say that we don't want more children...only that I don't want to give birth to them. On that, I am pretty sure. Another new development is the addition of a progesterone "add-back" that helps prevent the severity of the side effects.
It's still a little scary. For the next 2-4 weeks, things will get worse than they have ever been. The drug acts to overload me with estrogen and plug the receptors - thereby shutting them off. Doc offered to call me in some narcotic pain relievers if it gets to be to much. She told me just to call if I need them. Now there's a vote of confidence...
I have decided not to read up on all the side effects and such. I think I will simply let my experience speak for itself. Sometimes one can over-research things and get into mental trouble. I do understand that some folks feel a little crazy on this therapy and can't handle the mood swings...that sounds like a normal day around here! ;)
Anyhow...feeling strange. I don't like making chemical changes to my mind and body (anymore). The ones in my 20's were much more interesting. Heh, heh, heh...