Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Time Flies

Where has this week gone already? I haven't even written anything in my blogs for a couple of days, and my email support group is talking without me! I love that group of ladies, they support each other with love and guidance and most of them have never met! If you are interested in a daily email about health and fitness and the struggles of all that, email me and I will add you. You don't need to participate, but it's fun to read the discussions.

I have been very busy and very successful in my home business this week. When it rains it pours, right? I have started training others to do what I do and it has been so rewarding helping others. Not only do I get to educate women about safer, healthier, less expensive alternatives for thier homes, but I get to help them build a solid income for thier families to!

I don't have to sell anything or have any of THOSE parties, either. Been there with the candle thing.

I can't believe it! Honestly, when I started this back in May I figured since I could get my $29 back I would just give it a go. I didn't believe that it was for real and nothing could convince me like a little honest to goodness experience.

Liam had his root canal...or the second step of it anyway. Geesh, I didn't realize there was three steps to this thing and about $300 too. Praise the Lord for our credit card. Didn't think I would ever say that! But the little guy seems to be doing well. We have to go back for the crown next week, which I learned isn't permenant and will likely need to be replaced in a couple of years.

The little girls are doing well. Alahnnah is chomping to start back to school and our little Susan is going to walk any second. She started giving kisses and says a handful of works. Her hair is SO long and straight! And blonde!! Oh, man, where did my baby go?? Time to have another one...wait, I need to loose these extra 15 pounds first! Ack!!

Saturday, July 26, 2008


I heard a pastor teaching on cheating yesterday. Not marital unfaithfulness or cheating on your taxes, but about cheating your time at work and devoting more of it at home.

This is a topic that is of constant concern to me. Being a mother of three children that works full time outside the home, it's always a challange to "balance" things. I have long felt that any effort to "balance" your life between carreer and family is a thinly vield attempt to "have it all" on your terms and disregard what God has to say about your responsablities to your family.

It's clear from the teachings of the Bible that a woman's first priority is to her home (ie. her husband and/or children). It's also clearly necessary in this economy for the woman of the house to sometimes have a job that takes her away from that. So the natural thing to do would be to try to make an even split and balance the two, right?

No. My first priorty is to my family - Husband first and then children. I am to be the manager of the household. That is where my energy should be spent first, then what's left should go to my job.

How do you do that? I joke around that I have 3 kids, 2 jobs and 1 husband. I actually work a full time job away from home and a part time job from home. I understand about time managment! I also pray that God will help me not balance my life, but give a larger portion to my family and home.

Recently I asked my employer if I could change my hours. My job is in an office, and it's generally accepted that I would work 8-5 like everyone else. I asked my employer if I could work 7-3 so I could be home when the children get home from school. My husband works 3:30-12 so we don't have to deal with daycare anymore.

While I'm not home all day, I still get the benefits of being there after school. More time with kids = happier kids, healthier home. My employer was really cool about it. I didn't present it as a choice. I told them that this was what I needed to do and if they couldn't accommodate me, I would have to find something else.

You're probably wondering how I can take on another job when I'm preaching about spending more time on your family. Well, that's the whole point. I am building my business so that in a year I can quit working outside the home and be home for my family full time. It's a bit of a crunch right now and takes effort, but it can be done.

When I started, I prayed for direction on how to manage my time with all of this. I work my business after the kids go to bed at 8:00 and on Saturday mornings when they are zoned out on cartoons anyway. I don't work at all on Friday nights because that is family night! Now, my business isn't going to explode. It might take me more like 18 months or even 2 years to build it to the point that I can work solely from home. But that's okay.

I'm putting God to the test. Malachi 3:10 tells us to do this by being obedient and see if the Lord won't bless us beyond our wildest dreams.

Which brings me to the subject of "me time". I get a visible twitch when I read about or hear about women having "me time". I do understand the concept of taking time for yourself. For me, I exercise. I take the kids to the Y, drop them off at thier little activities and pound the belt on the treadmill for the better part of an hour. They have cable TV there and I watch "Take Home Chef" on TLC.

Then, I pick up the girls get them in thier swimsuits, struggle into mine, give them both a shower, go play in the pool for a bit, get them all out, strip them down give everybody another shower, dress and brush hair and the haul them all out to the car.

Phew! Not much balance there. And that's the way it should be. You should spend more time on your home and family than anywhere else. Maybe I just keep repeating this to make myself feel better. It's certainly not a widely acceptable concept for women to dedicate thier lives to thier famillies. At the very least, you should want to "have it all" or "balance things", but should't live selflessly and solely for your God and Family.

I say yes you should. Stop listening to the world and start listening to the God of the universe.

Thursday, July 24, 2008


Here's a link to my Fabulously Healing Hand. Hopefully I will be down to a smaller bandage next week. It really feels good and I even caught myself trying to use my thumb to grasp something earlier.

Worthy of Note

I was just thinking about the whole saga of the hand thing and realized that I haven't had any wierd dreams with regard to it. No dreams about it falling off, rotting or gushing blood. No wierd dreams about the bandages turning into snakes and eating my face or ANYTHING!

Wow, if I can come up with this stuff while awake, it's no small wonder that my dreams are twisted. I recently suffered with a series one night involving a crocodile chasing me while I stayed ahead of him by going through a maze of trailers in a trailer park. I distinctly remember going through one bathroom that had a carpeted floor, toilet cover, and counters...

No Photos Please!

Well, I won't bore you with more info about my stupid hand. It's healing - and made a miraculous turnaround on Monday. This weekend they thought maybe what we were doing wasn't working - even so, God was working on it!

A little good news for your Thursday!!! Our adoption of the older kids is nearing completion. We started the process for my husband to officially adopt them and change thier last name right after the first of the year.

I got an email from my attorney and it's all in order and we are closing in on the final days! I haven't posted much about it, due to the legal sesitivity. Trust me, things have transpired that I wanted so bad to tell you all about, but just can't yet.

When this is all signed, sealed and delivered, I have quite the story to tell. Hooboy!!

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Who the Son Sets Free free indeed.

I feel so rejuvinated from going to worship today. I was able to listen to Pastor for once, and really think about what he was saying. It's something I need to think about.

When I admitted that I was a sinner and in need of God's grace, I enabled the Lord to help me with things that I had tried to do on my own.

Now that I have this power - the power of the Holy Spirit in my corner - I should be able to overcome things, and not fall to sin and temptation as easily as before, right?

Only if I let Him, can He help me. I have a problem that I still think "If I just think hard enough about something, I can ______ " I try to work things out on my own. I try to be self sufficient and self reliant, but wind up just being selfish and self serving. I can't, for one minute run my own life without screwing things up and for the most part I'm okay with that. But lately there has been one thing that I can't let go of.

It's something really small and that's why it's flown under the radar. Nobody else even knows I'm struggling because there's no evidence. When I smoked you could smell it. But not so with over eating. I manage to balance enought exercise with those extra calories to maintain those extra pounds that never melted off from Baby a year ago.

And no one will ever confront you with a few extra pounds so there's no accountability. Only me, my problem and what I can do about it.

Or is there?

It's not just me. God is here with me. I have to turn to him and ask him for help. I have tried everything I can in my power. Now I need to stop hiding my problem from Him and trying to figure it out on my own, and ask for help. I have to trust that this isn't to small for Him, that He really does care about my measly little problem.

I have to stop listening to my inner dialogue of failure and shame and start listening to the Lord who loves me and wants me to be healthy and the very best I can be. I asked Him to set me free. He came through with the big stuff, it's time to trust him with this.

Saturday, July 19, 2008


I have enabled comments from anyone on my blog. As long as they stay appropriate, I will even allow anonymous comments. I welcome your input!

A Little Set Back

I thank the Lord for yesterday evening when I felt so great! I was able to spend some time alone with my beautiful, wonderful husband and we had such a great time doing next to nothing next to one another...sigh...isn't he great?!

But, phooey. This morning I felt like I got hit by a mack truck. My hand was really aching. I cut my pain pills back dramaticlly in the last couple of days so I figured that was what was up with the pain. But I was also sick to my tummy and just overall blah.

Sweet Husband made me some breakfast and I felt a little better. When I went to PT and my hand looked really swollen and icky today. I'll spare you and just supply a Link to Icky Hand Photo, if you are interested.

The PA swabbed some icky stuff out of the owie and told me to keep an eye on the nausea today. I guess the new antibiotic is a real stinker and tends to make people feel wierd (or wierder depending on who you are). :) She also said that it bled a little, and that is good.
She said that is good. Dead tissue doesn't bleed. Okay...good to know.

Please continue to pray for healing. It seems like this issue has fallen in between medical specialties here and they kinda don't know what to do with me.

So when I left the hospital it was super sore. On a positive note, I got a great walk in at the hospital. They forgot to tell me that the South Entrance is locked on the weekends, so I had to walk around. It was great to do some real walking and get my heart pumping, I have been so lacking regular movement this week. So, while mildly inconvenient, I needed the exercise.

Looking forward to spending this day relaxing and doing things that fun to Me! I love our children, and am such a better Mommy after a couple of days apart.

Friday, July 18, 2008


Today I feel BETTER! To be more precise, this evening I feel better. I did get up and go in to work around 6:30. Those darn hives spread out to make me look all sunburned yesterday and weren't much better this morning. I managed to scoot into work, get a dent made in the payables, organize payroll and scoot out of there. I felt like my skin was on fire!

So I went home and pointed the fan on me and slipped into a Benedryl induced coma for an hour. Mom came and got the big kids yesterday (that woman really does love me) and hubby is off on Fridays, so I got to just relax and recover for once.

Pulled myself up and went to Physical Therapy. When she pulled the dressing out of my wound, it didn't feel like she was pulling out yards and yards of it this time. The whirlpool bath still stung like crazy, but when she was packing the dressing back in there (cringe) it wasn't as bad. you can see, she didn't wrap it as bulky, so I can type with the other hand a bit. The wound has quit draining so much so I can have less dressing on it. Yeah!

Here's my Beloved and our littlest Blessing giving me all thier support!

I'm sure you are all getting grossed out by the wound pictures, so I won't post one for a few days, maybe by then the meat won't be visible anymore. Another good thing, the pain is better. I have tons of people praying for me, and it's working. I even FORGOT to take a pain pill at the scheduled time today. So when I remembered, it was burning a little but I just took one. Can always take another one if I need it.

I will be glad to get a smaller dressing on this thing. Right now I'm akin to The Mummy. It would be nice if it elicited some form of sympathy or something, but that's not happening. It's just the same old same old only with one hand.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Another Day, Another Horrible Allergic Reaction

This is what hives look like. I am allergic to my antibiotic, or so they say. When it started yesterday they said it was the pain pills. So I quit taking them and it got worse.

I'm on Benedryl but still feel like I'm boiling from th inside out! They said it should be better in 24 hrs and gave me a different antibiotic.

On a good note, PT Tanya is smiling because my gaping wound has healed up 1/10 of a centimeter. Go me!

And here's the exciting part of my day:

Still typing one handed so pictures will have to do the talking for me!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Now What?

It seems that I am newly allergic to pain meds. I had been taking heavies since the surgery, but today I tried work again so I decided to take just one of the lighter variety that were supplied at the onset
of this adventure.

I've aquired some lovely spots that are itchy! The nurse said that one can become sensitive to narcotic pain relievers at any time. She instructed me to take some Benedryl and warned it might make me sleepy. Yah, like being on narco for a week hasn't?

So here's a pic before pt today. They measued and it seems to be closing up.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Where Have You Been?

I miss my blog! Unfortunately, I am one handed at this point, so pictures will have to say most of it.


Sunday July 6th - My hand was very swollen and sore. No visible bite or recalled injury.

Went to the doc again - previously they had wrapped it and told me to stop using it so much. I got an antibiotic and some meds for gout.

Went back, got some pain relief and a referral to an rhuematologist. That doc said that it could be a type of arthritis associated with the eczema on my hands. She gave me a shot of cortisone in the rear and this warning:

July 10th : "If this is psoriatic arthritis the shot will help within 24 hours. If it's an infection in your hand, the cortisone is the WAY WRONG thing for us to do. Call me in the morning".

July 11th

I hand an appointment that day with a surgeon and had Surgery the next day to remove a large absess of infection under the skin.

July 12th before surgery

There were several complications before and after surgery. The pain became intolerable and morphene injections were barely taking the edge off. The first IV was up against a valve and cause immense pain when they were administering fluids. I had an allergic reaction to the antibiotice administered in my IV and that was really scary.

Unfortunately I was alone due to the hospital scheduling conflict. My husband had to be at home with our three children.

But Jesus was with me.

And it's a good thing. The next day they took off the bandages, irrigated my wound and then stuffed it full of gauze. I'm sure the Lord was in the room, because I wanted to punch that poor little gal doing the physical therapy.

July 13th after PT

So, like an idiot, I tried to go to work yesterday. That was terrible and I came home. The pain was better today, until I went to PT at 1:00. I'm so tired and my appetite is zero so healing is slow.

July 15th

So that's my story. I don't have a whole lot of functionality with my left hand at this point, and - as you can imagine- it hurts the more I use it. Your prayers would be of great help. At this point there still is no known cause.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Turning Into My Mother

Well, it seems that my looks weren't all that are following some maternal instincts. Along with my tone of voice, my mannerisms, and my quirky little sayings, my body is following suit.

I don't just mean the lovely shape that my 30something body has settled into. While the little extra around the hips and tummy does serve to give me such a "comfortable" look (as our 9 year old says) the transformation is seemingly internal as well.

I've had some really nasty swelling and redness around my first knuckle on my thumb. I've been to me gp, got a shoulder shrug, some pain pills, and a referral to a rhuematologist.

In talking with her it seems that this could be a form of arthritis that stems from having psoriasis. I knew I had eczema all my life, but now it seems that the psoriasis has found me too. She asked me about how I feel when I get up in the morning and how I move throughout the day. Headaches, swelling of the ankles, knees, etc.

We'll see. Right now I need for this ghastly swelling to go down in my thumb. It hurts so bad, I'm all hopped up on Vicodin just to write this post! They gave me a shot of cortisone today and we'll know if that was the right thing to do by morning. She said that if it's not the Psoriatic Arthritis and is, in fact a big glob of infection in there - it will be worse by morning.

Hmmm, can't wait.

Monday, July 7, 2008

Changing the World

What's Bugging You?

Mosquito bites. What can you do to keep from getting them, besides slather yourself and your children down with dangerous DEET? Take a look at that "Family Insect Repellant" you are using. Most say "keep out of reach of children". Scary.

Here is a few facts about DEET from the website

DEET is a registered pesticide. DEET is short for N,N-diethyl-m-toluamide (also known as N,N-diethyl-3-methylbenzamide). It is a member of the toluene chemical family. Toluene is an organic solvent used in rubber and plastic cements and paint removers. DEET is absorbed through the skin and passes into the blood. The Medical Sciences Bulletin, published by Pharmaceutical Information Associates Ltd. reports, "Up to 56% of DEET applied topically penetrates intact human skin and 17% is absorbed into the bloodstream." Blood concentrations of about 3 mg per litre have been reported several hours after DEET repellent was applied to skin in the
prescribed fashion. DEET is also absorbed by the gut.

I don't have a degree in chemistry, so I can't tell you what the effects of a pesticide is on the body, but I wash it off my vegetables so is it something that I want to slather on my children? Here's a little more about the warnings that the EPA came out with several years ago. From the same website as listed above.

An emergency medicine bulletin notes that DEET may have significantly greater toxicity when combined with ethyl and isopropyl alcohols and freon which are components of some DEET repellents. In 1998, the US EPA made it illegal for any product containing DEET to make any child safety claims. Products with DEET are required to carry instructions that they should not be used at all for children under 6 months. Additional required warnings state that for children 6 months to 2 years, only concentrations of less than 10% DEET should be used, and only once a day. For children from 2 -12 years old, only concentrations under 10% should be used, and repellents should not be applied more than 3 times a day.

I read on to find that they recommend you come in and wash it off your skin immediately and ultimately warn against puting any on your skin at all. The EPA recommends wearing long sleeved shirts and pants instead of using this stuff! This stuff is nasty and is linked to neurilogical problems in children.

There are a number of natrually derived insect repellants available on the market. They do need to be applied more often but smell much better and do not have the harmful side effects brought on by products containing DEET.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Hammond from Heaven

General Hammond

Actor Don S.Davis passed away from a massive heart attack on Sunday morning at age 65.

Davis was known for his role as Major General George Hammond on the Sci-Fi hit Stargate SG-1. As Commanding Officer for the Stargate Command, "Hammond from Texas" was much loved on and off screen. Always following orders and sending a strong message of obedience and love of country, Davis portrayed a beloved respected leader and family man.

Davis retired from the series in it's 7th season due to health conditions that prevented his full time participation but continued to make guest appearances. The actor was also a very talented painter and sculptor.

Hammond out.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Finding a Church to Love

Where do you start? If you didn't grow up in any particular denomination (or are stepping away from that teaching) you may not know how to pick a church.

One way is to open the yellow pages. Run your finger down the appropriate column with your eyes closed and then stop. There you go! Call them up and see when to show up come Sunday morning. Done.

Or you could take a more scientific approach. Follow these suggestions for finding a local church to plug in to.

1. Location, location, location. How far do you want to drive every Sunday, Wednesday and any other day there is a function or Bible study? Look around and pin point ones of interest in your area.

2. Theology. What does this church teach? What do they believe? Most have websites anymore that you can check out. Look for a link such as, "About Us" or "What We Believe". You want a church that teaches from The Bible and believes in one fundamental thing – salvation by grace through faith in Jesus Christ alone.

3. Programs. Is there a children's program? Sunday school, Bible studies, youth groups, singles groups, married couples groups? Find a church that has a place for you to belong within. Also, find a place you can serve as well. Church isn't just about what they can do for you – it's how you can serve the body of Christ as well.

4. Dive in and GO. You will have to go to a church at least 4 Sundays in a row to decide if you like the service, the pastor, the songs, etc. Don't go one Sunday and decide that the songs were bad, you didn't like the pastor's message (although that is a reason TO go if he made you think!), or that people didn't notice you. It takes time.

5. Pray about it. Once you have decided where to start going, call on the Divine Counselor for His direction. He will impress upon your heart the right way to go.

Trust and obey, it's the only way!