Wednesday, March 20, 2013
The Grumpy Hours
Seemingly never-ending winter
My inability to sleep
Training for a Marathon
Easter festivities and preparations
Or maybe I've just become a terrible grouch. Lately I have two times during the day that I just can't seem to pull out of my funk.
Time #1 Wake-up until I drop the girls off at school.
Lately, I haven't slept well. I started Melatonin and that helped for about 10 days. So when I wake up in the morning, I'm not thrilled. I take our Freshmen to school and come home to get the other kids ready for the day. Our 3 year old has often woken with "shrillness" and our 5 and 11 year olds are nonplussed that school (and winter) is STILL going on.
I feel badly for not being that Sun-shiney Mommy in the mornings...but frankly, just knocking back the coffee and getting to the point where I can make complete sentences is a victory.
Time #2 4pm to 5:30pm
I am a horrible Mother. When my school age kids walk in the door things get all grumpy-o-licious again. I still have my daycare sweeties, am in the end parts of fixing dinner, and now need to crack the whip over home work and instrument practice. It's like the life is being sucked out of me. I just feel absolutely exhausted and want to be struck with a heavy object to be put out of my misery.
It's not the two little boys screaming through the closed up house (freaking WINTER) acting like Power Rangers. It's not the Kindergartner resisting writing the numbers 1-50 for the 700th time. It's not the teen relating stories of maxing out on bench or squat or whatever. It's not the 11yo crying big fat crocodile tears over having to practice her flute.
IT'S EVER-FREAKING-THING AT THE SAME TIME
Okay. I'm okay, now.
I feel badly that all I can do is order them around and grunt some semblance of approval in their general direction. Once daycare is over and dinner is served, I'm okay again...sort of. But man, am I ever grouchy right now. I'm doing my best to unpack this attitude of mine. It isn't helping anyone. I know that I need to start sleeping better, but not sure HOW to do that. I actually started taking 2 Melatonin...which is probably why I feel like I got scraped out of a barrel in the mornings...But I am an active gal - I NEED SLEEP. And stressing over not sleeping = not sleeping.
It's now 10:45. I better try to go to bed.